"I am endeavoring to see God through service to humanity, for I know that God is neither in heaven, nor down below, but in everyone." - Gandhi
If you know me, you know I find myself getting mixed up in all kinds of "act of service". Most of which I feel is useful to the world and gives back to me as I give. However, there are some acts of service I find myself doing out of obligation or out of fear that if I don't do it no one will and it must be done.
When I look at the energetic imprint of both types of service I clearly can see that the times when I do things out of authentic desire to be of service is the times that both the receiver of my service and myself truly get the gift I am intending to give. However, on the flip side, when I act in service out of obligation I am blocking both myself and the receiver from everything but the feeling of obligation.
Where you give from within yourself matters. Who you are as the giver at the time of giving matters to the receiver. You will only be successful in giving of yourself and your time when you can do it from the space of service for the sake of giving. When you are able to access this space of clear giving you are able to feel and see the benefits of your actions. It helps instill a sense of purpose in life, a sense of connection, and a sense of hope.
For example, as a CASA I am only good at volunteering, when I show up without any expectations of outcomes. I am only able to enjoy the work, when I show up to see humanity in everyone, including the mistakes most of humanity would consider hard to see and hard to accept. I am only able to be the change agent in my role when all I ask of myself is to be of service to humanity, then I can truly see the human behind acts that seem unforgivable. Then I am able to forgive what I am seeing and accept the humanity in it instead. It keeps me from being injured by what I am witnessing and allows me to be present in the service.
Then I can be at peace with the things I see in the world and find a sense of purpose at the same time.
Next time you do something out of service for someone else, or the greater good, check in with yourself about why you are doing it, what you expect from it, and what judgement you have about it. See if you can release yourself from all of the motives, expectations and judgement and still do the act of service. If you can't then find something else you can do instead.